Whites of Their Lies by Incest Survivor 

7/18/2000

"I want to share this with you cuz you guys can appreciate the part of me that was trembling, daring to do this.
 
I'm registered at classmates.com.  I heard recently from a child neighborhood chum. His mom was my high school PE teacher. His oldest brother was the friend of my 1st love in 6th grade. That first love had to move then end of my 6th grade summer. I've never forgotten him. When I look at his face in the jr hi yearbook my spirit calms and feels safe, happy and cared for.
 
It was with trepidation that I emailed another classmate who was registered. I had seen him at 5 year high school reunion. He's been registered all this time. But I never actually thought I'd write him and ask him to confirm my memories of him.
 
Then he didn't answer for a week. You can imagine I thought it was because he was appalled about my incest history, for instance.  He would have found out about it cuz of the biography I posted for myself on classmates.
 
I'm so much more relieved than other than you guys would understand. I'm so relieved that what I did remember was real."

 

-----Original Message-----
From: Cheryl Miller
Sent: Tuesday, July 18, 2000 5:24 PM
To: 'Leigh
Subject: RE: Thanks for tracking me down . . .

> From: Leigh
> What a pleasant surprise to receive email from you.  Classmates is a
> good service - I have received messages from Kathy Morris and Doug
> Hartwell.  Do you remember them?

Mmmm...the name Kathy Morris is starting to sound familiar the more I think about it. I wish my yearbook wasn't in storage.

> Your recollections about high school were interesting.  Yes,
> I had a red
> MG Midget in high school.  I bought it from a neighbor for
> $325.  What a
> deal!!  I do remember asking you to go to the prom after dropping you
> off from some event (probably drama).

Ahhh...thanks for the reality check. I didn't remember it was to the prom. Either Junior or senior I didn't go to. I can't remember.

My freshman or soph year Mike Collins called and asked me. I automatically said no cuz our family was scheduled to sing at a church. I cried when mom said we could have changed the schedule, but she wouldn't let me call him back. He took Margaret Pankratz. Proms and I don't seem to make it to the finishing gate very well.

Mike and I communicated for awhile some years ago. He was going thru a divorce, while I was pursuing my relationship with my current husband.

> You asked why I didn't laugh when you were sitting on my lap in that
> party game?  I only vaguely remember a party like this
> (probably drama)
> but you should take it as a complement that I didn't laugh. 
> If I had,
> it would have meant that I would have lost your company.

*chuckle* I remember it was at someone's home, I don't remember it being drama related. I remember feeling aghast I couldn't get you to laugh - you dog.

I can accept the compliment these days *grin*.

> Thinking about it, we were in school together since
> kindergarten weren't
> we?

I have about 1 memory each year, wonderful memories of 6th grade summer, then the lights go out in my memories til end of 8th grade when Mike Collins stole my notebook clip. I was laughing with him. High school the lights in my memory kept turning on.

Gail Curtis remembers so many, many memories all the way back thru elementary school.  I haven't talked to her since her 1st marriage about 20? years ago.

My life's mostly a blank. I appreciate hearing from you that what I did remember wasn't off base.

> Sorry to hear about your trouble at home.  I didn't know. 
> Growing up is
> difficult enough and it's even worse when you don't have anyone with
> whom you can confide.  It sounds like Phil was helpful there.

Yes he was. My kids and stepson are grilling me now, "Why are you laughing? Who are you emailing? Who is this guy? Describe him!"  Lol, my stepson thinks he has to protect his father's interest. My husband's not the jealous type and he's very social. He'll appreciate my hearing from a high school friend.

> Thanks for remembering what I was doing 20 years ago.  Yes, I was a
> teacher in a probation camp in Malibu then.  I left that and spent a
> year in educational publishing.  After a year of that, I returned to
> teaching in a drop-out recovery program in Montebello Unified School
> District.
>
> Along the way, my wife and I earned our masters degrees.  In 1989, I
> quit the job, we sold our house and moved to Eugene, Oregon,
> where I got
> my PhD in Educational Technology. I am presently a professor at the
> University of Northern Iowa.  We have 3 boys ages 14, 16, & 18.

I've never been to Eugene OR, but talked of moving there having researched it some years ago.

So we have in common the travails of parenting teenagers...

> Can't say that I remember what you were doing 20 years ago.  Please
> don't take offense for my absent-mindedness, but it is professional
> handicap for many of us in my chosen profession.

I recently finished a synopsis for gradfinder.com, and then posted it on classmates.com:

http://www.classmates.com/user/myschool/view_user.tf?registration=556337&year=1971&school_id=1885&offset=0

Thank you so much for getting back to me. So glad to hear you're doing well.

 
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